after my grandma passed away, i went home. i left campus and didn’t return for a week. i had a voice lesson, two in-class performances, a choir dress rehearsal, and a choir concert originally scheduled for that week. i refused to do any of it. i barely ate during the first couple days, and barely talked or sang again until the funeral that weekend.
my anxiety about school had been getting progressively worse throughout the semester. then the woman and best friend who helped raise me passed away…how would i react? would i drop certain classes? would i withdraw from the university? would i finally seek out professional help?
i had only been gone for a week, but it felt like i had been gone for much longer. and being absent from school, i was terrified of all i would have face upon my return. make-up work, additional schoolwork, performances, talks with professors, the mere thought of having to return and continue on with the semester after all that had happened…i thought my first week back would be terrible.
but, ever since i returned to school, God has showered me with love. blessing upon blessing. most professors have been very understanding, helpful, kind, and caring about the circumstances. students have been checking on me to see how i am doing. i am in the process of getting my schoolwork done. and, after patiently waiting for me to return to campus, a very sweet someone has not stopped sending me cute messages, cuddling with me, holding my hand, kissing me on the side of the head, and encouraging me to do well on my schoolwork since the day i first came back.
i am feeling so very blessed.
thank you to all who have thought about, prayed for, reached out, helped, and shown love to me and my family during these past few weeks. i appreciate all of you, and i thank God for you.
now, just a few more classes, and (with the exception of any assignments and make-up work i have) i will be starting my spring break this evening. :]
My grandma and best friend went to be with the Lord today. She was reunited with her husband Eliseo in heaven today as well. God and His angels must be rejoicing to have such a beautiful, faithful, Christ-like couple together again in their presence. I love you, Grandma. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for raising me. Thank you for everything. Rest in peace. (February 9, 1915 - February 24, 2014)#family
Photographs of dancers taken with long exposure
This body of work is entitled Nudes, by Shinichi Maruyama.